im in love with that

uh huh

oh yeah!!!

happy birthday taufik!!!

went out wit d.j. n cheryl. bought alot of stuffs. went round orchard. was saving as much money as possible. i was actualy gg wit other ppl do stuffs but since its d.j.'s last day to see me coz he's gg malaysia on tues i sacrificed. those ppl are gonna strangle me wen they see me men. i'm such a good fren.... [;p]

aft that went wit ma aunt go watch christmas with the kranks with a few 9 year olds. my day to be childish. the movie wasn.t bad as they say it is. wel diff ppl got diff views.

went dinner at pizza hut. was writting taufik rox all over the place.

went swimming wit the kids. its at night and we have the whole pool alone.

watched mona lisa smile. nice.

that's all. peace out.

blood

I HATE MYSELF FOR LOVING YOU!!!

a peiece of the whole that keeps us alive
the blood running through our veins
an evidence bonded by double-edged knives
of how my history still reigns

memories of roses interlocked in red
no matter what it's stuck in my head
so piercing but it can't be freed
in my heart where you sowed the seed

your words incisive as an axe
it tore the remaining barrier
blood is flowing out the dyke
the current is growing stronger

swore with blood never going back
but now all those words are hacked
contending not to walk on same tracks
alas, lacking in defteness and knack

blood is a sign of bondage
blood is a sign of strugle
it is a sign of weakness
it's a sign of me being unable

unable to move on to let go
to rise up from the low
to forgive and forget
to be real with no regrets

afraid to let everyone see
that i'm beelding because thee
that until now wounds have not healed
that blood is with me still

love is only a feeling

wad da hell to rite? duno wad to rite...

--writer's mind block--

peace out

i miss you every minute

got bloody french today
2.00 to 5.oo
suck
atleast can go out

For there is no friend like a sister In calm or stormy weather; To cheer one on the tedious way, To fetch one if one goes astray, To lift one if one totters down To strengthen whilst one stands. Christina Rosetti

life

the true meaning of life i easy to find
yet everybody is pretending to be blind
but once you open up your eyes
you can see an incomparabled paradise

i think everyone has a different defenition of life. often their definition is wrong. well i found mine a couple of months ago. its not that i was looking for it, it just came to me. actualy i've been living in that paradise since i was born. i was ignorant and took it for granted. i even despise it sometimes. but when you got the taste of it you'll never wana let it go. it a profound feeling that keeps you alive. i dont know. it might be friends, family, career,hobbies ot gods. but for me it all sums up together to make a one whole bowl of cereals called life. but one of those bits is the meaning. i ate it, it was good. i wish i could share it with everyone else. but i'm not yet ready to proclaim the good news. maybe because i havnt fully opened the box.

today went for class then after that went to my friends house. wah big men. 4 story. its a kind of condo but the house is bungalo. got swimming pool sia. gg there on 22nd go swimming then stay overnight then next day xmas party. we all planing for the party. my friend and i are i/cs for deco. we got bored and annoyed the rest. melinda and i was laughing the whole day. anthony scolding us the whole day. gabe crying because of us the whole day. yee chin and janice ignoring us the whole day and karen eating the whole day. instead of party meeting it was chaos. by 6 i was shouting 'im hungry' hoping that the maid would hear me. then i pretending to call kfc to order delivery. after all the anticts we went out and ate. went home by 9 and father scloding on phone cause curfew was 6. i told him "you yourself still outside the house by this time. your worse than me what. your curfew was at 5!!!" then he bursted and i put down the phone. quickly went to bed so i wont get more yellings when he comes back... haha...

it is better to have loved and lost than to never had loved at all